Amelia Jane Again

I miss my Mumma.

Tue, 02 Mar 2010 17:52:37 +1000

I miss my Mumma.

Love is such a strange thing. Previously, it’s seen me spending way too many nights awake...

Tue, 02 Mar 2010 15:11:43 +1000

Love is such a strange thing.

Previously, it’s seen me spending way too many nights awake until the early hours, way too many minutes spent on the phone, talking about nothing in particular, way too many dollars spent, trying to connect with him, to get him here, or me there.
It is a hard thing, to have to pretend to love someone, when in fact you love someone else. And the fallout from those feelings is always the same.

An empty bottle, a fumbled mistake, an insincere apology at the end of it all.

Eventually I let it all go. I let the one I wasn’t in love with go, and many months later I let the one I really did love go.
Unrequited love is possibly one of the hardest things a person can put themselves through. It rarely ever works out. Very rarely. But strangely enough, eventually, for me it did.

I let the person I loved the most go. I severed ties. I ceased communication. And then one night, three months later, my phone rang at midnight.
And now I get to wake up every morning and see him sleeping on the pillow next to mine.

syntheticpubes: by jazstereo

Sat, 06 Feb 2010 14:36:00 +1000

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by jazstereo

I’ve been sick and snotty for 5 days now. It’s put me in the crankiest mood ever because...

Thu, 04 Feb 2010 11:43:21 +1000

I’ve been sick and snotty for 5 days now. It’s put me in the crankiest mood ever because I physically can’t do the things I want to do. Even walking up my driveway has me coughing and collapsing at the top. Lame.

We’re moving to Wollongong on Sunday afternoon! So much to be done between now and then but...

Fri, 11 Dec 2009 10:29:36 +1000

We’re moving to Wollongong on Sunday afternoon! So much to be done between now and then but I’m actually starting to get excited and feel like all of this is real.

I don’t even remember the last time I took to my Tumblr in hopes of actually writing more than...

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 09:10:49 +1000

I don’t even remember the last time I took to my Tumblr in hopes of actually writing more than a sentence, but I can assure myself that it must at least seem like a long time ago. So much has changed in the last few months, things that, if you had told me back then about where I’d be now I probably would have slapped your face and then fallen over backwards with shock. Because it is just that much like WOW!

Three months ago I was living in Wollongong NSW with my Daddy, my two little brothers, my old doggie and my new puppy. I was working 2 days a week at a cinema and spending my pay and my Centrelink money on alcohol, clothes and whatever else tickled my fancy. I was single, I had rad times with my friends and I didn’t care about much. My best friend and I weren’t even speaking because we were both too busy thinking about our own lives, 700 kilometres apart, to be bothered with each other.
Then there was a phonecall, and many others followed. A trip was planned. And then one night, after two years of trying to deny what was quite obvious to both of us, everything fell into place. And now I’m in a relationship, and living with my boyfriend in Grafton, on the North Coast of NSW. In two weeks we’re going to pack up our little bedroom and shove as much of our stuff as we can into ‘the wagon’ and come back home to Wollongong. I’ll still be living with my Daddy, and brothers and my dogs who hate each other, but now the final piece of the puzzle will be there too.

And I can’t even begin to tell you how happy I am about that.

We rant, we bicker, we blame them and we demand of them when we’re in need. It’s just so...

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 18:34:44 +1000

We rant, we bicker, we blame them and we demand of them when we’re in need. It’s just so easy to turn to those who raised you and point the finger, telling them it’s their fault that your life has become so royally fucked up. The things they will so willingly give whenever you need, and the thoughts and beliefs they’ve instilled in us bring us back down to earth during those bad times and they make you remember, no matter what has happened, and what they’ve done, they’ve always done the very best that they could have done with the information and tools that they possessed at the time.

"he comes to speak to me, i freeze immediately, because what he says sounds so unreal."

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 21:00:11 +1000

“he comes to speak to me, i freeze immediately, because what he says sounds so unreal.”

(via youwillneverwastemytime)

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 19:56:29 +1000

(via youwillneverwastemytime)

vanillahaze: Paris Tattoo Art Festival (via jeremyDP)

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 19:49:49 +1000

vanillahaze:

Paris Tattoo Art Festival (via jeremyDP)

On nights out.

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 02:23:49 +1000

We put our faces on, do our hair and slowly get dressed, all while knocking back a few ‘pre-drinks’. We get in a cab, we stand in the line, we pay our money and we get in. Next stop, the bar. After knocking back a few you suddenly feel queasy. Too much vodka in quick succession was a bad idea, so you stumble towards the toilets and perform a little act that I like to call ‘The Courtesy Spew’. Step up to the bowl, get those first few drinks out of your system and head straight back to the bar so your night can really get started.

Belated Teen Angst Guy: your soo shit

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 03:13:09 +1000

Belated Teen Angst Guy: your soo shit
Amelia: Why!
Belated Teen Angst Guy: because your a shit human
Amelia: What the fuck did I do now?
Belated Teen Angst Guy: nothing, thats the point
Belated Teen Angst Guy: dont even try to say hello next time you see me

if you really have to drive the point home

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 02:27:49 +1000

then you’re not really making one are you?

Nights I don’t remember, With the people I’ll never forget.

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 12:30:05 +1000

Nights I don’t remember,

With the people I’ll never forget.

Someone STOLE MY CAMERA…and my laptop has passed on…hence my lack of WRITING ANYTHING...

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 13:42:00 +1000

Someone STOLE MY CAMERA…and my laptop has passed on…hence my lack of WRITING ANYTHING WORTH READING.

Sorry.

on a lighter note,

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 18:29:30 +1000

I am young. I am yet to turn twenty one. Doesn’t that mean I should be having the time of my life right now? Isn’t this the time that we should all out be celebrating our youths? And yet, no one wants to party with me!

My mother and my father both told me within 24 hours of each other that I need to ‘look after...

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 14:03:19 +1000

My mother and my father both told me within 24 hours of each other that I need to ‘look after myself better’. In those exact words. You cannot realise the uncanniness of this until you understand that my parents do not speak to each other and on the rare instances that they do, it’s only to hurl abuse in each other’s direction. Maybe it’s the universe’s way of telling me that I need to actually pay attention to myself.

There’s been alot going on. My best friend’s boyfriend is currently incarcerated for a crime that he only partially comitted. This has taken a huge toll on my friend. She’s lost her support system, the person who pays the rent for the house she lives in and HER BOYFRIEND, which is a really difficult thing to have to experience. I’ve tried as much as I can to step up for her and help her out as much as I can. Plus I’ve only recently started a new job & for the first week, I worked about 57 hours. So it’s been a strange couple of weeks.

I’m currently sick with Gastroenteridis though I’m dosed up enough to not have to actually FEEL the symptoms of my illness. My registration for my car is becoming closer and closer and rather than spend 1500$ getting it fixed and registered, I’m going to spend 150$ getting a new safety rail and then selling it to whoever will have it for 500$. I ran into another car yesterday, and then drove off and laughed about it. I am so far out of my own conscious I don’t even know what’s going on around me half the time.

I would really really love a haircut, but alas now have the money but not the TIME. Pick me a...

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 09:22:18 +1000

I would really really love a haircut, but alas now have the money but not the TIME. Pick me a haircut and keep in mind my fringe is short.

A week of blargh.

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 22:03:21 +1000

I am about the tiredest dude. I got a job on Wednesday and have since worked 41 hours, with another 8.5 tomorrow, and more probably after that. My life currently consists of eating, driving, working and sleeping. Oh & being sick with the flu which, unlike the other things, isn’t any fun at all. Once the holidays are over work will slow down and I’ll be able to settle down a little bit. I haven’t even seen Bananas for a week, which is like trying to live an entire week without your left leg. If you’re not used to doing so, that is. I made the decision to book and pay for my half sleeve to be coloured when my tax comes back and I’m getting an entirely new tattoo & you’ll never guess where.

Coming to you from a current state of drugged up hyperactivity,
Amelia.

In other recent news...

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 07:52:27 +1000

I got a job. I work at the movies.